So I just started this post so I could be angsty and now that I'm here, I'm not all that angsty. That, I will not complain about. For a casual update of my life, I do absolutely nothing except watch as many movies as I can get my hands on and try to sleep through most every day to avoid having feelings. This morning from 2 am to 4 pm I watched Taking Woodstock, which I loved. I wish I could go back in time to 1969. I think I wish that everyday of my life. I wish I was in Bethel, New York. Sometimes, I try to piece together all the things that cause me misery and then decide what would pacify all of it. I have a religion, people that love me, ambitions, dreams. But most of the time none of that means anything to me. Damn.